Tuesday, February 23, 2010


....this was me - all day Sunday.
yep, i baked bread, made muffins, did laundry, cleaned and tromped around outside in this get up.
white sweats with a strawberry print that stop at mid-calve, black polka dot socks pulled up to my knees and a mismatched sweatshirt.
not caring, really.
NO ambition to "get pretty".

my outside outfit was matching the feelings inside with precision. 


these days
i feel a bit mis-matched.

feeling a million emotions.
{i am sure looking at all my old scrapbooks aided this a little...HA!}
led in several different possible directions.
WHICH path do i choose?
WOWSA - did we really sign up for all of this, girls?


life gets confusing.
out of sync
causing a girl to re-think the very ideas that glue her soul together.
hanging in there.

Do ya have those moments?
please tell me you do - assure me i am not alone.
 i don't even need to ask, do i?
 - because this is life

So what do we do about it?
i don't know about you, but i cry. a lot.
then i get brave.
i hear whispers, 
{i swear i do. - but shhhh, don't tell anyone - they might think i am LOSING IT! :)}
telling me
leading me
in directions i never thought possible.

i start to see the light
little by little
i open my eyes to new possibilities
and i call on my faith.
to move me forward.

because this i know for sure.
there is no benefit in quitting.
no benefit in staying weak
no benefit in shutting out the world.

the pain you endure eventually becomes your strength
embrace it
it is a gift
to get you to where your going.

....it  is a BEAUTIFUL adventure
so dry your tears and enjoy.


I will love the light for it shows me the way, yet I will endure the darkness because it shows me the stars.


Here is the WINNER - I am sending you a BOOK! :)


 Emily said...

Hi Angela

I love reading and think I could do with some motivation at the moment - the possitive energy is a bit low.
My fave books are any that make it hard to put them down, big fan of J D Robb (a bit cheesy but a great read)
Email me at: angela@unitystampco.com


Savannah O'Gwynn said...

Love it--even mis-matched you look GORGEOUS! I wanna be like you:} You are AMAZING!

Latisha said...

I think that "voice" is your inner self telling you what to do. For me, the biggest growth has always come from the biggest struggle/hardships.. As long as your decisions are made with a careful heart, then you are doing the right thing. Somewhere maybe you just dropped your compass without knowing it and are walking in circles, if you look in the right spot you will find it, and be back on track.
You are not alone, we all have stuff to work out.
big hugs

Emily said...

Mis-matched is me everyday! I love that quote and thank you so much xx

StampinCathy said...

You even make mis-match look great! Congrats to the winner too!

BonnieRose said...

Congrats to Emily.. and omg Angela.. u look amazing even in your jammies.. you are so beautiful....
We all have our days..
In the book I'm writing right now.. I talk all about gaining strength through the struggles, through the challenges.. we all walk different paths, and yet, we're all so much the same.
We learn.
We make mistakes.
We listen.
And we grow.
It's what being strong and brave is all about.. trust in yourself. Trust in the ppl that love you.
Everything in life happens for a reason.. I firmly believe that.. we wouldn't be the ppl we are today if not for the hard times, the challenges, the times when we question our own decisions...

Know this.
You are a blessed woman.
You empower, you inspire, and how do you do this?
By just being the woman you already are!
We all love you.... xo

the whimsical butterfly said...

Couldn't have said it better than Bonnie and Tisha....and to answer your question, you are DEFINITELY not alone. I wish we lived closer so we could sort out all of life's questions over that coffee we keep talkin about :)...but in the meantime, sending you positive and loving thoughts from wherever I am!!!

Vanessa Middleton said...

Even mis-matched, you are just perfect!

Lisa said...

I wish I looked as good as you do in mis-match in my dress clothes. I just started following the blog a few days ago and all ready I feel more impowered. I am going thru that "out of sync" mode currently but know that some how it will get better and I will be better for it. Your quote "I will love the light for it shows me the way, yet I will endure the darkness because it shows me the stars.” Og Mandino quotes is one of my favorites though I sometimes don't live by it...

Kelly Landers said...

My favorite days are the ones where I can be mismatched hanging out with my family and just doing things around the house. Never feel alone because I know we all share your thoughts about wondering what we are doing and where we are going! That quote was amazing...thanks for sharing!! Hugs!!

My Creative Time said...

I LOVE my mis-match weekend days! oh sooo relaxing:)Thanks for sharing & have a wonderful day!!!

Ramsey said...

I LOVE knowing I'm not the only one that goes through hard times. :) But what we do go through only makes us stronger and YOU, my dear are an amazing person! :)

Mary Friederichsen said...

As Jessica said, Lathisha and Bonnie said it very well!
I have felt mismatched for quite awhile, but you my Dear Agnels, are helping me and probably many others find our compass.
However I would imagine thhat hearing that from so many is probably a little overwhelming!:)
Please feel this hug from cyberspace!
And as Jessica said as well, wish we could talk over coffee as well!Talking with those that understand these feeling and our craft!
We are now in the season of Lent, which is a time of reflection and evaluating our Faith. So you actually have perfect timing for feeling this way! tehe
And at the end of it you caome out stronger and clearer with a deeper Faith! Okay, I am rambling!
Hugs Angela, God Bless you!

NoraAnne said...

You look adorable! and I just love this post, it helps to know we are not alone in this crazy world and not the only ones feeling these feelings we can't always understand! You are so brave and inspiring and i just want to thank you for sharing :)
Hugs, Nora Anne

jpmayo said...

beautiful post, Angela...I have never been so mismatched as I am right now...it's calming to know I'm not alone...and neither are you, ever.
love you.

Debbie Seyer said...

Wow, Angela! I think you read my mind. Big happenings are going on for me and I have no idea where they will lead. Its hard to deal with and just "BE", isn't it? You are not alone because I am right there with you! :)

Maren said...

I am sort of begining to feel quite comfortable mismatched. :) Is that good? You know you are NEVER alone. Ever. :)

Carla aka scrappypug said...

WOw.. i posted a little blurb on my blog today after making some tough decisions and getting some wake up calls.. and then I read this...you are inspiring and sometimes in live ( i believe) LISTEN and watch and ponder ....seeking for clarity. Clarity will come I believe to anyone who can sit vigil with the uncertainty and not rush to fill the emptiness LISTENING takes.

Anonymous said...

When I turned 30, my whole life seemed to start turning around. I started to become very restless with my life and knew that things were changing. I really started to listen to that "inner voice" or my intuition. It was certainly hard to just let things go and leave things behind, but when I was at peace with a decision, then I grew to know it was the right thing to do. My faith has grown stronger because of everything I went through and all the changes that have happened in my life. When I wasn't at peace with a decision but still thought I needed to do it, God would always step in somehow to show me that it wasn't the right thing. It's been 16 years since that all started into motion and just 1 1/2 weeks ago, I quit a job where I was making very good money because I knew it wasn't good for my soul and to start my own business. Sometimes I feel that I should be more worried or scared about it all, but I know in my heart that it was definitely the right decision. And finally I may have some time and energy to be more creative, which I desperately need to do. Angela, listen to that voice and follow your heart. Sometimes it takes awhile to see where the yearning or unrest is going to take us. I think that's the hardest thing to wait on, where is this all going.

Anonymous said...

Somedays I feel so overwhelmed and I feel like I'm bursting with possibilities. Other days I feel so overwhelmed that I feel crushed by all the choises I need to make. I take the 'crushing' days as they come, because lets face it, they are a part of life. Those are the days when I try to stop, and just be. I want more of the 'bursting with possibilities' days in my life. Cry? I cry lots. I tell my boyfriend, that just because i'm crying doesn't mean there is something wrong, it means I'm expelling negative energy and replacing it with good. Nothing wrong with that!!

Martha said...

wow, your post is just amazing., OH yea I feel like that sometimes! grateful for those around us that pick us up and our faith, without faith we have nothing.

FibreJunky said...

Angela, love, I don't think you are capable of not "getting pretty." You're always gorgeous.

I have more of those "moments" than I ever want to admit to. You can usually tell, because I disappear. I can't usually face the world when I'm crying like that, and it's the most awful feeling. Crawling out the other side is sometimes so very difficult, but I always make it. Somehow.