Friday, October 8, 2010

shift your awareness...

....sometimes don't you just miss that someTHING, or someONE, a time, or even a place? just a little twinge of something inside your heart that longs for that one moment, or that one person, or that one FEELING...but you just can't put your finger on it. i get that way sometimes.... i'm just sayin'. ♥



yep.

and that "sometimes" happened last night.
i got a little tangled up.
i don't even know why.
too much thinking perhaps?
too many expectations from me - of me?
all these loose ends hanging in my soul and suddenly a big wind comes up  & tangles them all up into a big GIGANTIC mess.

it happens.
so.
knowing me.
and.....
in order to feel whatever it was i was feeling i walked outside.
by myself....
late in the evening.
walked up into the field in the back of my house.
and just sat.
for a very long time.
thinking. about nothing.
is that possible?

then i decided that i needed to just let a few tears fall.
i was alone, i might as well.
i don't even know why.
maybe it was for the family that just lost their son in the war.
maybe it was for a young mother who's husband was taken suddenly in an accident.
maybe it was for all the little things that unfold consistently around me that i want to fix, but can't.
maybe it was for 
what was, what is, and what potentially could be
maybe it was just because i could, and it is a good thing to do.

as the emotions cleared away,
i felt a sense of peace.....
i like to call it a shift in awareness.
clarity.
deep breath.

making my way back to my front door... i looked up.
at my stars.
{they are the prettiest above my house, did you know that?}
God had a little gift just for me up in the sky last night....something i had never noticed in my entire life.

this......


i have been alive THIS LONG and never noticed.
....what is referred to as pleiades - or the seven sisters.
i am sure i learned about it in the science class i never enjoyed.
i am sure it had been pointed out a time or two through the years.
however....i NEVER really noticed till last night.
i wasn't ready...it was waiting for the perfect moment to become apparent...
and that moment was last night.
i felt like columbus discovering america.
HA!
i blinked a couple times.
wondering if it was the mascara in my eyes that blurred all the stars together.
sure enough
it remained.
what i was seeing was real and SO breath-taking.

...and all of this because 
i shifted.
i stopped. i noticed.
makes a girl wonder what else she has been missing all these years.



my wish for you.
appreciation for what is.
however....

the next time that you....

....miss that someTHING, or someONE, a time, or even a place?

and just a little twinge of something inside your heart longs for that one moment, or that one person, or that one FEELING...


take a moment.
for yourself.
feel it and find your shift.

...and perhaps you will become aware of the simple gifts that surround you.  
they have been there all along just waiting for you to notice. 
THAT is a BEAUTIFUL thing.
 miracles happen.
wishes come true.
THIS i know for sure.


18 comments:

Lisa said...

Perfection.

Jessi said...

Angela, this is beautiful. You have such a way with words, and I am always moved and affected in an amazing way by reading what you write. Thank you for sharing.

Eva said...

This is so beautiful Angela! There is definitely a shift of awareness in the air nowadays, more and more people are awakening and getting back into NATURE, the beauty it has to offer to us gets us back into that LOVING mode. Sounds like it was a beautiful night with full of magical gifts!!!! Love You and Hugs to you! Eva

Anita C said...

Angela thank you for sharing one of your special moments with us, it was beautiful and a joy to hear. I happy for you and your latest shift that you just had, I wish for everyone to have a shift of awareness. The world would be a better place if everyone could open their hearts and accept their shifts. Wishing you quiet within yourself and love always :)

Elena Lai Etcheverry said...

I love that you had such an amazing epiphany. I love your beautiful soul brave sista!

joslyn said...

i love that you found pleiades. a long time ago i found the constalations and got very excited about them. the thing i LOVE is that they are always there anywhere you go. it's like friends in the sky. cassiopeia is my favorite. the "W" in the sky:)
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cassiopeia_(constellation)

great post!

NoraAnne said...

Love this!

marilyn said...

LOVE this - you definitely have a way with words. You put into words beautifully the things we all feel!

StampinCathy said...

WOW Angela! This is just beautiful. Thanks so much for sharing your moment. When you were walking you were not alone...God was holding your hand to show you the way.

Brenda said...

Wow! This brought tears to my eyes...I can relate! (Although I could never put what I felt into words like you did!)

Bambi Pro said...

WOW - you sure have a way with words. That was beautiful.

Bonnie said...

Beautiful.....

Mary Friederichsen said...

Beautiful Angela!
Isn't God Awesome! Just for you to notice and the right time!!
You write so beautifully! Such a gift.

May you feel His loving prescence and the warmth of His embrace whenever you are feeling confused or lonely in your Soul.
Remember he has also given you Angels in your life called friends that will always be there for you as well!

Blessings and Hugs,
Mary

Kristen said...

Angela, I luv your post. Your sincerity, your openness. Thank you for another beautiful post and beautiful insight into your thoughts.... Keep sharing and it'll keep changing the bloggie world, one post at a time. Blessings. Kris

Susan said...

Angela, Thank you for the beautiful and timely post. I so needed to be reminded of this.

Hysteri-CAL said...

Beautiful ! xxxxxxxx

Sally Lynn MacDonald said...

What astonishes me is that the other night, I walked outside - probably to get some crafty thing out of the car...and I saw them, the 7 sisters, up in the night sky. I cannot remember the last time I noticed them...high school in Kansas? And there they were! I wonder if we were looking at them at the same time. Thank you for sharing your quiet, necessary moment with me.

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