Thursday, February 27, 2014

THAT girl.



....once upon a time.
THAT girl.
had it all figured out.

that girl.
woke up every day with clear direction.
sure thoughts.
and everything simply “fell into place”.
'cause that girl MADE it seem that way. 
regardless.
she was the "sure" thing.
the constant. 
the strength.
that girl.
right? 
you have known her.
been her?

sure strength.
sure love.
sure beauty.
sure. 
of anything. and everything. 
100%.
convinced.
100%.
{of her illusion}

SHE pushed through what needed pushing through.
with a smile.
...and the sweetness of the sweetest. 
that girl always did what needed to be done.
no. matter. what.
{self compromising by the minute.}

... all was well and right in her world.
that girl knew exactly what it took.
and she did it. 
what else is she to do? 
she is THAT girl, after all.

THAT. girl.
is a mama.
a friend.
a wife. 
a employee/employer.
a woman.
everything.
to everyone.
AND ALL THE SAME 
she is simply a girl.
just keepin' on.
keepin' on.
not to be underestimated.
{not for a second}

THAT girl.
{perfection at its least – and best – go figure.}

so what if...
suddenly.
SHE
isn't exactly THAT girl anymore?

what if.
perfection. 
fades to imperfection.
and clear direction becomes swayed.
what if.
everything that used to fall gracefully into place.
simply crashes?
HARD.
what if.
everything changes?
SHE changes. 
a little here. a little there.
and VOILA.

suddenly - who's THAT GIRL!?!?!
:)

SHE is.
she IS.
THAT girl.
still.
but different. 
better.

love her if you want to.
or don't.
she isn't all that concerned. 
'cause now...she has 
flaws and imperfections.
that make her real.
wants and needs.
that are evident and straight forward.
passion. 
that doesn't apologize.
 crazy and lack of crazy.
simply because she knows her boundaries.
you should explore her mind and her heart. 
'cause you can. 
'cause she MIGHT just let you.
 she is not sure about one damn thing.
and won't pretend to be.
 honor her strength,  adore her weakness.
whatever.
she cares ABOUT you not WHAT you think. 

SHE simply IS.
she has NOTHING figured out with certainty.
but EVERYTHING resides in hope.
and she prefers it that way..... 
she is beautifully confused.
gorgeous chaos.
reckless.
living. 
loving.
IN it.
TO FEEL IT.

it's a THAT girl thing.
get it. or don't. 
been there  - or haven’t.
admit it or not.

THIS girl is good either way.




Thursday, January 2, 2014

sometimes....we love. without loving.

life has this way of throwing us off.
a little bit.
ya know?

suddenly everything that made sense...
makes no sense.

our souls are so strong.
yet maybe a little lost.
they are SOULS for goodness sake.
NOTHING is going to break them, yet EVERYTHING is going to challenge them.
that is the purpose, right.

they are persevere-ant.
but at the same time.
still searching.
always -
for what exactly it is....
that makes them stir.

it takes a lifetime to understand.

i think.
we are MEANT to feel.
in this moment.
in order to get to where we are going.

so every time someone or something....
whispers.
pay attention.
everything matters.
on some level or another.

soak it in - or let it go.
your choice.